• Europe was a dream…at one point I’m pretty sure I was under 108, and I was even getting comments that I was skinny, but right now I’m flabby and fat again. I’m 116, which could be worse, but still, after getting a taste of what it feels like to be thinner, I NEED to go back. I still have several days until school starts, so I want to get down to at least 112. This year’s the year that I reach my goal weight. 

  • When I finally came home (last Thursday) I was 108.8, the lowest I’ve seen in years..it was such a nice feeling. My weight is currently 112.3 (despite exercising at least 2 hours a day and eating 2 small meals) but I’m determined to get back on track. It’s been rough in terms of b/p but I almost made it through yesterday without, and I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to do it today. I’m just going to focus on eating the right foods in the right portions. 

  • 111.4 pounds!! Only 2 more pounds to go until my bmi is ‘underweight’. Feeling a one-day water fast for today. Popped a blood vessel in my eye. 

  • These last two weeks have been hell..I guess I can attribute some of it to PMS, but the bloating/cravings had my weight go up to 118. I’m finally down to 113. My goal is to reach my lowest weight of 107 by Sunday. I’ve been b/p like crazy..I’ve been ordering food so much, I can’t bring myself to calculate the total cost. It’s disgusting. Junk food, laxatives, puking, crying..I’m a wreck. 

    Safe foods for tomorrow:

    • zero-calorie drinks
    • yam
    • 80-calorie yogurt
    • 45-calorie apple sauce for babies
    • apple
    • up to 10 almonds
    • 100-160 calorie instant oatmeal
    • 180-calorie mocha protein shake
    • raspberries

    I really want to curl up into a ball and disappear.